hobbit_feets: (firefly || time is out of joint)
I want to leave. 

Is that cowardly?  I don't know, maybe.  To leave without finishing things up more.  I've tried, though, is the thing; I went and talked to teachers and made an effort there, and for a while it succeeded, and I felt on top of things and whatever, but it's just got worse now.  

Maybe it's cowardly, but I do believe it's the best thing for me right now.  For my personal health- mental and physical and emotional and all of it.  Staying here is doing me no good.  I need a fresh page.  To go home, I think, would be good for me.  Someplace where I know I have good friends, where I can get a job and be productive day by day.  Turn over that proverbial new leaf and find somewhere better for me to start again.

Fuck it.

hobbit_feets: (firefly || time is out of joint)
I want to leave. 

Is that cowardly?  I don't know, maybe.  To leave without finishing things up more.  I've tried, though, is the thing; I went and talked to teachers and made an effort there, and for a while it succeeded, and I felt on top of things and whatever, but it's just got worse now.  

Maybe it's cowardly, but I do believe it's the best thing for me right now.  For my personal health- mental and physical and emotional and all of it.  Staying here is doing me no good.  I need a fresh page.  To go home, I think, would be good for me.  Someplace where I know I have good friends, where I can get a job and be productive day by day.  Turn over that proverbial new leaf and find somewhere better for me to start again.

Fuck it.

hobbit_feets: (iris || tunnel of the unwanted)
*sigh*  I cannot wait for the semester to be over.  I just really need a fucking change of scenery.

I'm depressed, I'm sleeping through classes and staying up all night, I'm hardly talking to people except online, I don't do anything except online.  Not good.  This is not good, but I can't bring myself to fix it.  FUCKING HELL.

*flails* 

I'm going home for Thanksgiving break this week, and I'm just really tempted to stay there.  I do not want to be here anymore; I need the city, I need people.

And it's fucking cold out.  Really horrible, horrible cold that cuts to the bone and means you can't walk bloody anywhere.  Which is rubbish if you're like me and can't drive, and therefore have to walk everywhere.

hobbit_feets: (iris || tunnel of the unwanted)
*sigh*  I cannot wait for the semester to be over.  I just really need a fucking change of scenery.

I'm depressed, I'm sleeping through classes and staying up all night, I'm hardly talking to people except online, I don't do anything except online.  Not good.  This is not good, but I can't bring myself to fix it.  FUCKING HELL.

*flails* 

I'm going home for Thanksgiving break this week, and I'm just really tempted to stay there.  I do not want to be here anymore; I need the city, I need people.

And it's fucking cold out.  Really horrible, horrible cold that cuts to the bone and means you can't walk bloody anywhere.  Which is rubbish if you're like me and can't drive, and therefore have to walk everywhere.

hobbit_feets: (f & l || stephen motherfucking fry)
Once again, I have got myself into the habit of not attending classes and not doing homework.  This is inexcusable.  It will not continue.  This is all I have to say.
hobbit_feets: (f & l || stephen motherfucking fry)
Once again, I have got myself into the habit of not attending classes and not doing homework.  This is inexcusable.  It will not continue.  This is all I have to say.
hobbit_feets: (John says 'bollocks')
I am a laid back sort of person.  Relaxed.  Chill, if you will.  But my god, my brother makes me angry.  That sort of ridiculous anger where you can't even think straight and all you want to do is just lash out because you need some way to deal with the anger.  I want to hit him.  Properly.  Punch him in the face.  Make him apologise, or just fuck off and leave me alone, you know.  But of course I can't.  Fuck it, I hate this.  This is such a waste of emotion.  There's no way for me to deal with it, none at all, and it just infuriates me.  
hobbit_feets: (John says 'bollocks')
I am a laid back sort of person.  Relaxed.  Chill, if you will.  But my god, my brother makes me angry.  That sort of ridiculous anger where you can't even think straight and all you want to do is just lash out because you need some way to deal with the anger.  I want to hit him.  Properly.  Punch him in the face.  Make him apologise, or just fuck off and leave me alone, you know.  But of course I can't.  Fuck it, I hate this.  This is such a waste of emotion.  There's no way for me to deal with it, none at all, and it just infuriates me.  
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Bloody, buggering fuck! Arse! Hellblast and sodomy and damnation! 

One wouldn't think setting one's alarm so as to wake up on time for class would be that difficult a thing, but apparently I simply can't manage it the for the life of me!  This is the second time I've missed this class, and the fourth  time I've missed a class.  I feel really horrible, first of all because these are the two classes I most enjoy and most care about, and second, because the professors are going to get this image of me as a slacker who doesn't care if she shows up on time to class or not, and that is not true at all.  I'm going to fail, just because I can't wake up on time.  What the fuck?
hobbit_feets: (Default)
Bloody, buggering fuck! Arse! Hellblast and sodomy and damnation! 

One wouldn't think setting one's alarm so as to wake up on time for class would be that difficult a thing, but apparently I simply can't manage it the for the life of me!  This is the second time I've missed this class, and the fourth  time I've missed a class.  I feel really horrible, first of all because these are the two classes I most enjoy and most care about, and second, because the professors are going to get this image of me as a slacker who doesn't care if she shows up on time to class or not, and that is not true at all.  I'm going to fail, just because I can't wake up on time.  What the fuck?
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Arr, avast, etc. No, fear not, I'm am more savvy when it comes to piratical lingo than that. I would be deeply ashamed were I not.
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Ehh!!

Jan. 20th, 2005 11:44 pm
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Bleh!!! I love Emily, I really do, but I am sick of her overreacting about Bridget and Joe. I mean, nobody else cares except for her. I think, really, she is fairly immature s far as guys are concerned. Bridget was her best friend, and I think she still would be, except that Emily is inventing these barriers that don't exist. It's like, Emily, you can't have her all to yourself!! Yes, she has a boyfriend, but that doesn't mean she's neglecting you! It's just, when she dumps all these nonexistant problems on my shoulders, and I try to tell her to just talk to Bridget because it's all in her head, she won't listen. She's so convinced of her own weakness that no matter what I tell her, she won't follow through. Really, if she got her way, Bridge and Joe would have broken up long ago, and Emily would have Bridget all to her lonesome. It gets so irritating. She really has a way of inventing problems for herself. Speech too. She's brilliant, but she's terrified to practice, saying that she can't, she doesn't have it, she can't do voices- all this stuff, just repeating these negative things over and over again. I mean, why be miserable if you can help it? I'm happy- I know Bridget and Joe need alone time, and I really don't care. My speech stuff is a hell of a lot harder than hers, and I get up and have a go at it without complaining, I just try- today I made up a voice on the spot, and I was fine!! I'm really in a bitchy mood right now, because I'd never feel like this otherwise, but she just seems like such a coward sometimes... But I know she isn't. And now I, too, am overreacting. But I haven't really been able to talk to anybody about this...

Ehh!!

Jan. 20th, 2005 11:44 pm
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Bleh!!! I love Emily, I really do, but I am sick of her overreacting about Bridget and Joe. I mean, nobody else cares except for her. I think, really, she is fairly immature s far as guys are concerned. Bridget was her best friend, and I think she still would be, except that Emily is inventing these barriers that don't exist. It's like, Emily, you can't have her all to yourself!! Yes, she has a boyfriend, but that doesn't mean she's neglecting you! It's just, when she dumps all these nonexistant problems on my shoulders, and I try to tell her to just talk to Bridget because it's all in her head, she won't listen. She's so convinced of her own weakness that no matter what I tell her, she won't follow through. Really, if she got her way, Bridge and Joe would have broken up long ago, and Emily would have Bridget all to her lonesome. It gets so irritating. She really has a way of inventing problems for herself. Speech too. She's brilliant, but she's terrified to practice, saying that she can't, she doesn't have it, she can't do voices- all this stuff, just repeating these negative things over and over again. I mean, why be miserable if you can help it? I'm happy- I know Bridget and Joe need alone time, and I really don't care. My speech stuff is a hell of a lot harder than hers, and I get up and have a go at it without complaining, I just try- today I made up a voice on the spot, and I was fine!! I'm really in a bitchy mood right now, because I'd never feel like this otherwise, but she just seems like such a coward sometimes... But I know she isn't. And now I, too, am overreacting. But I haven't really been able to talk to anybody about this...

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